Chapter 5
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ndspitefulnessandsociety.IactuallyhatedsocietyforadayortwoatMonteriano.Ididn’tseethatallthesethingsareinvincible,andthatifwegoagainstthemtheywillbreakustopieces.Thankyouforlisteningtosomuchnonsense.”
“Oh,Iquitesympathizewithwhatyousay,”saidPhilipencouragingly“itisn’tnonsense,andayearortwoagoIshouldhavebeensayingittoo.ButIfeeldifferentlynow,andIhopethatyoualsowillchange.Societyisinvincible—toacertaindegree.Butyourreallifeisyourown,andnothingcantouchit.Thereisnopoweronearththatcanpreventyourcriticizinganddespisingmediocrity—nothingthatcanstopyouretreatingintosplendourandbeauty—intothethoughtsandbeliefsthatmakethereallife—therealyou.”
“Ihaveneverhadthatexperienceyet.SurelyIandmylifemustbewhereIlive.”
Evidentlyshehadtheusualfeminineincapacityforgraspingphilosophy.Butshehaddevelopedquiteapersonality,andhemustseemoreofher.“Thereisanothergreatconsolationagainstinvinciblemediocrity,”hesaid—“themeetingafellow-victim.Ihopethatthisisonlythefirstofmanydiscussionsthatweshallhavetogether.”
Shemadeasuitablereply.ThetrainreachedCharingCross,andtheyparted,—hetogotoamatinee,shetobuypetticoatsforthecorpulentpoor.Herthoughtswanderedassheboughtthem:thegulfbetweenherselfandMr.Herriton,whichshehadalwaysknowntobegreat,nowseemedtoherimmeasurable.
TheseeventsandconversationstookplaceatChristmas-time.TheNewLifeinitiatedbythemlastedsomesevenmonths.Thenalittleincident—amerelittlevexatiousincident—broughtittoitsclose.
Irmacollectedpicturepost-cards,andMrs.HerritonorHarrietalwaysglancedfirstatallthatcame,lestthechildshouldgetholdofsomethingvulgar.Onthisoccasionthesubjectseemedperfectlyinoffensive—alotofruinedfactorychimneys—andHarrietwasabouttohandittoherniecewhenhereyewascaughtbythewordsonthemargin.Shegaveashriekandflungthecardintothegrate.OfcoursenofirewasalightinJuly,andIrmaonlyhadtorunandpickitoutagain.
“Howdareyou!”screamedheraunt.“Youwickedgirl!Giveithere!”
UnfortunatelyMrs.Herritonwasoutoftheroom.Irma,whowasnotinaweofHarriet,dancedroundthetable,readingasshedidso,“ViewofthesuperbcityofMonteriano—fromyourlitalbrother.”
StupidHarrietcaughther,boxedherears,andtorethepost-cardintofragments.Irmahowledwithpain,andbeganshoutingindignantly,“Whoismylittlebrother?WhyhaveIneverheardofhimbefore?Grandmamma!Grandmamma!Whoismylittlebrother?Whoismy—”
Mrs.Herritonsweptintotheroom,saying,“Comewithme,dear,andIwilltellyou.Nowitistimeforyoutoknow.”
Irmareturnedfromtheinterviewsobbing,though,asamatteroffact,shehadlearntverylittle.Butthatlittletookholdofherimagination.Shehadpromisedsecrecy—sheknewnotwhy.Butwhatharmintalkingofthelittlebrothertothosewhohadheardofhimalready?
“AuntHarriet!”shewouldsay.“UnclePhil!Grandmamma!Whatdoyousupposemylittlebrotherisdoingnow?Hashebeguntoplay?DoItalianbabiestalksoonerthanus,orwouldhebeanEnglishbabybornabroad?Oh,Idolongtoseehim,andbethefirsttoteachhimtheTenCommandmentsandtheCatechism.”
ThelastremarkalwaysmadeHarrietlookgrave.
“Really,”exclaimedMrs.Herriton,“Irmaisgettingtootiresome.SheforgotpoorLiliasoonenough.”
“Alivingbrotherismoretoherthanadeadmother,”saidPhilipdreamily.“Shecanknithimsocks.”
“Istoppedthat.Sheisbringinghimineverywhere.Itismostvexatious.Theothernightsheaskedifshemightincludehiminthepeopleshementionsspeciallyinherprayers.”
“Whatdidyousay?”
“OfcourseIallowedher,”sherepliedcoldly.“Shehasarighttomentionanyoneshechooses.ButIwasannoyedwithherthismorning,andIfearthatIshowedit.”
“Andwhathappenedthismorning?”
“Sheaskedifshecouldprayforher‘newfather’—fortheItalian!”
“Didyoulether?”
“Igotupwithoutsayinganything.”
“YoumusthavefeltjustasyoudidwhenIwantedtoprayforthedevil.”
“Heisthedevil,”criedHarriet.
“No,Harrietheistoovulgar.”
“Iwillthankyounottoscoffagainstreligion!”wasHarriet’sretort.“Thinkofthatpoorbaby.Irmaisrighttoprayforhim.WhatanentranceintolifeforanEnglishchild!”
“Mydearsister,Icanreassureyou.Firstly,thebeastlybabyisItalian.Secondly,itwaspromptlychristenedatSantaDeodata’s,andapowerfulcombinationofsaintswatchover—”
“Don’t,dear.And,Harriet,don’tbesoserious—ImeannotsoseriouswhenyouarewithIrma.Shewillbeworsethaneverifshethinkswehavesomethingtohide.”
Harriet’sconsciencecouldbequiteastiresomeasPhilip’sunconventionality.Mrs.HerritonsoonmadeiteasyforherdaughtertogoforsixweekstotheTirol.ThensheandPhilipbegantograpplewithIrmaalone.
Justastheyhadgotthingsalittlequietthebeastlybabysentanotherpicturepost-card—acomicone,notparticularlyproper.Irmareceiveditwhiletheywereout,andallthetroublebeganagain.
“Icannotthink,”saidMrs.Herriton,“whathismotiveisinsendingthem.”
Twoyearsbefore,Philipwouldhavesaidthatthemotivewastogivepleasure.Nowhe,likehismother,triedtothinkofsomethingsinisterandsubtle.
“Doyousupposethatheguessesthesituation—howanxiouswearetohushthescandalup?”
“Thatisquitepossible.HeknowsthatIrmawillworryusaboutthebaby.Perhapshehopesthatweshalladoptittoquiether.”
“Hopefulindeed.”
“Atthesametimehehasthechanceofcorruptingthechild’smorals.”Sheunlockedadrawer,tookoutthepost-card,andregardeditgravely.“Heentreatshertosendthebabyone,”washernextremark.
“Shemightdoittoo!”
“Itoldhernottobutwemustwatchhercarefully,without,ofcourse,appearingtobesuspicious.”
Philipwasgettingtoenjoyhismother’sdiplomacy.Hedidnotthinkofhisownmoralsandbehaviouranymore.
“Who’stowatchheratschool,though?Shemaybubbleoutanymoment.”
“Wecanbuttrusttoourinfluence,”saidMrs.Herriton.
Irmadidbubbleout,thatveryday.Shewasproofagainstasinglepost-card,notagainsttwo.Anewlittlebrotherisavaluablesentimentalassettoaschool-girl,andherschoolwasthenpassingthroughanacutephaseofbaby-worship.Happythegirlwhohadherquiverfullofthem,whokissedthemwhenshelefthomeinthemorning,whohadtherighttoextricatethemfrommail-cartsintheinterval,whodangledthematteaeretheyretiredtorest!ThatonemightsingtheunwrittensongofMiriam,blessedaboveallschool-girls,whowasallowedtohideherbabybrotherinasquashyplace,wherenonebutherselfcouldfindhim!
HowcouldIrmakeepsilentwhenpretentiousgirlsspokeofbabycousinsandbabyvisitors—shewhohadababybrother,whowroteherpost-cardsthroughhisdearpapa?Shehadpromisednottotellabouthim—sheknewnotwhy—andshetold.Andonegirltoldanother,andonegirltoldhermother,andthethingwasout.
“Yes,itisallverysad,”Mrs.Herritonkeptsaying.“Mydaughter-in-lawmadeaveryunhappymarri