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LadySusantoMrs.Johnson. Churchhill. Icallonyou,dearAlicia,forcongratulations:Iammyownself,gayandtriumphant!WhenIwrotetoyoutheotherdayIwas,intruth,inhighirritation,andwithamplecause.Nay,IknownotwhetherIoughttobequitetranquilnow,forIhavehadmoretroubleinrestoringpeacethanIeverintendedtosubmitto—aspirit,too,resultingfromafanciedsenseofsuperiorintegrity,whichispeculiarlyinsolent!Ishallnoteasilyforgivehim,Iassureyou.HewasactuallyonthepointofleavingChurchhill!Ihadscarcelyconcludedmylast,whenWilsonbroughtmewordofit.Ifound,therefore,thatsomethingmustbedoneforIdidnotchoosetoleavemycharacteratthemercyofamanwhosepassionsaresoviolentandsorevengeful.Itwouldhavebeentriflingwithmyreputationtoallowofhisdepartingwithsuchanimpressioninmydisfavourinthislight,condescensionwasnecessary.IsentWilsontosaythatIdesiredtospeakwithhimbeforehewenthecameimmediately.Theangryemotionswhichhadmarkedeveryfeaturewhenwelastpartedwerepartiallysubdued.Heseemedastonishedatthesummons,andloo