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heyareatpeace,whileI—Ipursuemylonelypilgrimagethroughlife,andthegoaliseverfaroff.Nowitcannotbemuchlonger,mystrengthisfailing,andsoonIshallhavethepeaceIwishedfor.OhGod,IdonotaskYouforcrownsofgoldandheavenlyraiment,Idonotaspiretotheblisswhichistheportionofthesaint,butgivemerest.WhenthegreatReleasecomes,givemerestletmesleepthelongsleepwithoutawakening,sothatatlastImayforgetandbeatpeace.OGod,givemerest!
Often,asItrudgedalongtheroadsbarefootedtogatherfoodandalms,haveIwishedtolaymyselfintheditchbythewaysideanddie.SometimesIhaveheardthebeatingofthewingsoftheAngelofDeathbuthehastakenthestrongandthehappy,andleftmetowanderon.
ThegoodmantoldmeIshouldreceivehappinessIhavenotevenreceivedforgetfulness.Igoalongtheroadsthinkingofmylifeandthelovethatruinedme.Ah!howweakIambut,forgiveme,Icannothelpmyself!SometimeswhenIhavebeenabletodogoodIhavefeltastrangedelight,Ihavefelttheblessedjoyofcharity.A
