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ng,andaskedthenurserightawayifitwasaboyoragirl.Shetoldmeitwasagirl,andsoIturnedmyheadawayandwept.‘Allright,’Isaid,‘I’mgladit’sagirl.AndIhopeshe’llbeafool—that’sthebestthingagirlcanbeinthisworld,abeautifullittlefool.’
“YouseeIthinkeverything’sterribleanyhow,”shewentoninaconvincedway.“Everybodythinksso—themostadvancedpeople.AndIknow.I’vebeeneverywhereandseeneverythinganddoneeverything.”Hereyesflashedaroundherinadefiantway,ratherlikeTom’s,andshelaughedwiththrillingscorn.“Sophisticated—God,I’msophisticated!”
Theinstanthervoicebrokeoff,ceasingtocompelmyattention,mybelief,Ifeltthebasicinsincerityofwhatshehadsaid.Itmademeuneasy,asthoughthewholeeveninghadbeenatrickofsomesorttoexactacontributoryemotionfromme.Iwaited,andsureenough,inamomentshelookedatmewithanabsolutesmirkonherlovelyface,asifshehadassertedhermembershipinaratherdistinguishedsecretsocietytowhichsheandTombelonged.
Inside,thecrimsonroombloomedwithlight.TomandMissBakersatateitherendofthelongcouchandshereadaloudtohimfromtheSaturdayEveningPost—thewords,murmurousanduninflected,runningtogetherinasoothingtune.Thelamplight,brightonhisbootsanddullontheautumn-leafyellowofherhair,glintedalongthepaperassheturnedapagewithaflutterofslendermusclesinherarms.
Whenwecameinsheheldussilentforamomentwithaliftedhand.
“Tobecontinued,”shesaid,tossingthemagazineonthetable,“inourverynextissue.”
Herbodyasserteditselfwitharestlessmovementofherknee,andshestoodup.
“Teno’clock,”sheremarked,apparentlyfindingthetimeontheceiling.“Timeforthisgoodgirltogotobed.”
“Jordan’sgoingtoplayinthetournamenttomorrow,”explainedDaisy,“overatWestchester.”
“Oh—you’reJordanBaker.”
Iknewnowwhyherfacewasfamiliar—itspleasingcontemptuousexpressionhadlookedoutatmefrommanyrotogravurepicturesofthesportinglifeatAshevilleandHotSpringsandPalmBeach.Ihadheardsomestoryofhertoo,acritical,unpleasantstory,butwhatitwasIhadforgottenlongago.
“Goodnight,”shesaidsoftly.“Wakemeateight,won’tyou.”
“Ifyou’llgetup.”
“Iwill.Goodnight,Mr.Carraway.Seeyouanon.”
“Ofcourseyouwill,”confirmedDaisy.“InfactIthinkI’llarrangeamarriage.Comeoveroften,Nick,andI’llsortof—oh—flingyoutogether.Youknow—lockyouupaccidentallyinlinenclosetsandpushyououttoseainaboat,andallthatsortofthing—”
“Goodnight,”calledMissBakerfromthestairs.“Ihaven’theardaword.”
“She’sanicegirl,”saidTomafteramoment.“Theyoughtn’ttoletherrunaroundthecountrythisway.”
“Whooughtn’tto?”inquiredDaisycoldly.
“Herfamily.”
“Herfamilyisoneauntaboutathousandyearsold.Besides,Nick’sgoingtolookafterher,aren’tyou,Nick?She’sgoingtospendlotsofweekendsoutherethissummer.Ithinkthehomeinfluencewillbeverygoodforher.”
DaisyandTomlookedateachotherforamomentinsilence.
“IsshefromNewYork?”Iaskedquickly.
“FromLouisville.Ourwhitegirlhoodwaspassedtogetherthere.Ourbeautifulwhite—”
“DidyougiveNickalittlehearttohearttalkontheveranda?”demandedTomsuddenly.
“DidI?”Shelookedatme.“Ican’tseemtoremember,butIthinkwetalkedabouttheNordicrace.Yes,I’msurewedid.Itsortofcreptuponusandfirstthingyouknow—”
“Don’tbelieveeverythingyouhear,Nick,”headvisedme.
IsaidlightlythatIhadheardnothingatall,andafewminuteslaterIgotuptogohome.Theycametothedoorwithmeandstoodsidebysideinacheerfulsquareoflight.AsIstartedmymotorDaisyperemptorilycalled:“Wait!”
“Iforgottoaskyousomething,andit’simportant.WeheardyouwereengagedtoagirloutWest.”
“That’sright,”corroboratedTomkindly.“Weheardthatyouwereengaged.”
“It’salibel.I’mtoopoor.”
“Butweheardit,”insistedDaisy,surprisingmebyopeningupagaininaflower-likeway.“Wehearditfromthreepeople,soitmustbetrue.”
OfcourseIknewwhattheywerereferringto,butIwasn’tevenvaguelyengaged.ThefactthatgossiphadpublishedthebannswasoneofthereasonsIhadcomeEast.Youcan’tstopgoingwithanoldfriendonaccountofrumours,andontheotherhandIhadnointentionofbeingrumouredintomarriage.
Theirinterestrathertouchedmeandmadethemlessremotelyrich—nevertheless,IwasconfusedandalittledisgustedasIdroveaway.ItseemedtomethatthethingforDaisytodowastorushoutofthehouse,childinarms—butapparentlytherewerenosuchintentionsinherhead.AsforTom,thefactthathe“hadsomewomaninNewYork”wasreallylesssurprisingthanthathehadbeendepressedbyabook.Somethingwasmakinghimnibbleattheedgeofstaleideasasifhissturdyphysicalegotismnolongernourishedhisperemptoryheart.
Alreadyitwasdeepsummeronroadhouseroofsandinfrontofwaysidegarages,wherenewredpetrol-pumpssatoutinpoolsoflight,andwhenIreachedmyestateatWestEggIranthecarunderitsshedandsatforawhileonanabandonedgrassrollerintheyard.Thewindhadblownoff,leavingaloud,brightnight,withwingsbeatinginthetreesandapersistentorgansoundasthefullbellowsoftheearthblewthefrogsfulloflife.Thesilhouetteofamovingcatwaveredacrossthemoonlight,and,turningmyheadtowatchit,IsawthatIwasnotalone—fiftyfeetawayafigurehademergedfromtheshadowofmyneighbour’smansionandwasstandingwithhishandsinhispocketsregardingthesilverpepperofthestars.SomethinginhisleisurelymovementsandthesecurepositionofhisfeetuponthelawnsuggestedthatitwasMr.Gatsbyhimself,comeouttodeterminewhatsharewashisofourlocalheavens.
Idecidedtocalltohim.MissBakerhadmentionedhimatdinner,andthatwoulddoforanintroduction.ButIdidn’tcalltohim,forhegaveasuddenintimationthathewascontenttobealone—hestretchedouthisarmstowardthedarkwaterinacuriousway,and,farasIwasfromhim,Icouldhaveswornhewastrembling.InvoluntarilyIglancedseaward—anddistinguishednothingexceptasinglegreenlight,minuteandfaraway,thatmighthavebeentheendofadock.WhenIlookedoncemoreforGatsbyhehadvanished,andIwasaloneagainintheunquietdarkness.