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ides,ofallthenumbersresortinghither,exceptSirJamesMartin,onwhomIbestowedalittlenotice,inordertodetachhimfromMissMainwaringbut,iftheworldcouldknowmymotivetheretheywouldhonourme.Ihavebeencalledanunkindmother,butitwasthesacredimpulseofmaternalaffection,itwastheadvantageofmydaughterthatledmeonandifthatdaughterwerenotthegreatestsimpletononearth,ImighthavebeenrewardedformyexertionsasIought.
SirJamesdidmakeproposalstomeforFredericabutFrederica,whowasborntobethetormentofmylife,chosetosetherselfsoviolentlyagainstthematchthatIthoughtitbettertolayasidetheschemeforthepresent.IhavemorethanoncerepentedthatIdidnotmarryhimmyselfandwerehebutonedegreelesscontemptiblyweakIcertainlyshould:butImustownmyselfratherromanticinthatrespect,andthatrichesonlywillnotsatisfyme.
