CHAPTER XXIX. LOUIS MOORE.
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vefascinationinherfootprints?Whencedidsheacquirethegifttobeheedlessandneveroffend?Thereisalwayssomethingtochideinher,andthereprimandneversettlesindispleasureontheheart,but,forherloverorherhusband,whenithadtrickledawhileinwords,wouldnaturallymeltfromhislipsinakiss.Betterpasshalfanhourinremonstratingwithherthanadayinadmiringorpraisinganyotherwomanalive.AmImuttering?soliloquizing?Stopthat."
Hedidstopit.Hestoodthinking,andthenhemadeanarrangementforhisevening'scomfort.
Hedroppedthecurtainsoverthebroadwindowandregalmoon.Heshutoutsovereignandcourtandstarryarmiesheaddedfueltothehotbutfast-wastingfirehelitacandle,ofwhichtherewereapaironthetableheplacedanotherchairoppositethatneartheworkstandandthenhesatdown.Hisnextmovementwastotakefromhispocketasmall,thickbookofblankpaper,toproduceapencil,andtobegintowriteinacramp,compacthand.Comenear,byallmeans,reader.Donotbeshy.Stoopoverhisshoulderfearlessly,andreadashescribbles.
"Itisnineo'clockthecarriagewillnotreturnbeforeeleven,Iamcertain.FreedomisminetillthentillthenImayoccupyherroom,sitoppositeherchair,restmyelbowonhertable,haveherlittlemementoesaboutme.
"IusedrathertolikeSolitude—tofancyherasomewhatquietandserious,yetfairnymphanOread,descendingtomefromlonemountain-passes,somethingofthebluemistofhillsinherarrayandoftheirchillbreezeinherbreath,butmuchalsooftheirsolemnbeautyinhermien.Ioncecouldcourtherserenely,andimaginemyhearteasierwhenIheldhertoit—allmute,butmajestic.
"SincethatdayIcalledS.tomeintheschoolroom,andshecameandsatsonearmysidesincesheopenedthetroubleofhermindtome,askedmyprotection,appealedtomystrength—sincethathourIabhorSolitude.Coldabstraction,fleshlessskeleton,daughter,mother,andmateofDeath!
"Itispleasanttowriteaboutwhatisnearanddearasthecoreofmyheart.Nonecandeprivemeofthislittlebook,andthroughthispencilIcansaytoitwhatIwill—saywhatIdareuttertonothingliving—saywhatIdarenotthinkaloud.
"Wehavescarcelyencounteredeachothersincethatevening.Once,whenIwasaloneinthedrawing-room,seekingabookofHenry's,sheentered,dressedforaconcertatStilbro'.Shyness—hershyness,notmine—drewasilverveilbetweenus.MuchcanthaveIheardandreadabout'maidenmodesty,'but,properlyused,andnothackneyed,thewordsaregoodandappropriatewords.Asshepassedtothewindow,aftertacitlybutgracefullyrecognizingme,Icouldcallhernothinginmyownmindsave'stainlessvirgin.'Tomyperception,adelicatesplendourrobedher,andthemodestyofgirlhoodwasherhalo.Imaybethemostfatuous,asIamoneoftheplainest,ofmen,butintruththatshynessofherstouchedmeexquisitelyitflatteredmyfinestsensations.Ilookedastupidblock,Idaresay.IwasalivewithalifeofParadise,assheturnedherglancefrommyglance,andsoftlyavertedherheadtohidethesuffusionofhercheek.
"Iknowthisisthetalkofadreamer—ofarapt,romanticlunatic.Idodream.Iwilldreamnowandthenandifshehasinspiredromanceintomyprosaiccomposition,howcanIhelpit?
"Whatachildsheissometimes!Whatanunsophisticated,untaughtthing!Iseehernowlookingupintomyface,andentreatingmetopre