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eiraccentwasanafflictiontotheears.Atownwheresuchmonstersaboundedwashardlymorethanasortoflowcomedy,whichcouldnotbetakenaccountofinawell-bredschemeoftheuniverse.LetanyladywhoisinclinedtobehardonMrs.Cadwalladerinquireintothecomprehensivenessofherownbeautifulviews,andbequitesurethattheyaffordaccommodationforalltheliveswhichhavethehonortocoexistwithhers.
Withsuchamind,activeasphosphorus,bitingeverythingthatcamenearintotheformthatsuitedit,howcouldMrs.CadwalladerfeelthattheMissBrookesandtheirmatrimonialprospectswerealientoher?especiallyasithadbeenthehabitofyearsforhertoscoldMr.Brookewiththefriendliestfrankness,andlethimknowinconfidencethatshethoughthimapoorcreature.FromthefirstarrivaloftheyoungladiesinTiptonshehadprearrangedDorothea’smarriagewithSirJames,andifithadtakenplacewouldhavebeenquitesurethatitwasherdoing:thatitshouldnottakeplaceaftershehadpreconceivedit,causedheranirritationwhicheverythinkerwillsympathizewith.ShewasthediplomatistofTiptonandFreshitt,andforanythingtohappeninspiteofherwasanoffensiveirregularity.AstofreakslikethisofMissBrooke’s,Mrs.Cadwalladerhadnopatiencewiththem,andnowsawthatheropinionofthisgirlhadbeeninfectedwithsomeofherhusband’sweakcharitableness:thoseMethodisticalwhims,thatairofbeingmorereligiousthantherectorandcuratetogether,camefromadeeperandmoreconstitutionaldiseasethanshehadbeenwillingtobelieve.
“However,”saidMrs.Cadwallader,firsttoherselfandafterwardstoherhusband,“Ithrowherover:therewasachance,ifshehadmarriedSirJames,ofherbecomingasane,sensiblewoman.Hewouldneverhavecontradictedher,andwhenawomanisnotcontradicted,shehasnomotiveforobstinacyinherabsurdities.ButnowIwishherjoyofherhairshirt.”
ItfollowedthatMrs.CadwalladermustdecideonanothermatchforSirJames,andhavingmadeuphermindthatitwastobetheyoungerMissBrooke,therecouldnothavebeenamoreskilfulmovetowardsthesuccessofherplanthanherhinttothebaronetthathehadmadeanimpressiononCelia’sheart.ForhewasnotoneofthosegentlemenwholanguishaftertheunattainableSappho’sapplethatlaughsfromthetopmostbough—thecharmswhich
“Smileliketheknotofcowslipsonthecliff,
Nottobecomeatbythewillinghand.”
Hehadnosonnetstowrite,anditcouldnotstrikehimagreeablythathewasnotanobjectofpreferencetothewomanwhomhehadpreferred.AlreadytheknowledgethatDorotheahadchosenMr.Casaubonhadbruisedhisattachmentandrelaxeditshold.AlthoughSirJameswasasportsman,hehadsomeotherfeelingstowardswomenthantowardsgrouseandfoxes,anddidnotregardhisfuturewifeinthelightofprey,valuablechieflyfortheexcitementsofthechase.Neitherwashesowellacquaintedwiththehabitsofprimitiveracesastofeelthatanidealcombatforher,tomahawkinhand,sotospeak,wasnecessarytothehistoricalcontinuityofthemarriage-tie.Onthecontrary,havingtheamiablevanitywhichknitsustothosewhoarefondofus,anddisinclinesustothosewhoareindifferent,andalsoagoodgratefulnature,themereideathatawomanhadakindnesstowardshimspunlittlethreadsoftendernessfromouthishearttowardshers.
Thusithappened,thatafterSirJameshadriddenratherfastforhalfanhourinadirectionawayfromTiptonGrange,heslackenedhispace,andatlastturnedintoaroadwhichwouldleadhimbackbyashortercut.VariousfeelingswroughtinhimthedeterminationafteralltogototheGrangeto-dayasifnothingnewhadhappened.HecouldnothelprejoicingthathehadnevermadetheofferandbeenrejectedmerefriendlypolitenessrequiredthatheshouldcalltoseeDorotheaaboutthecottages,andnowhappilyMrs.Cadwalladerhadpreparedhimtoofferhiscongratulations,ifnecessary,withoutshowingtoomuchawkwardness.Hereallydidnotlikeit:givingupDorotheawasverypainfultohimbuttherewassomethingintheresolvetomakethisvisitforthwithandconquerallshowoffeeling,whichwasasortoffile-bitingandcounter-irritant.Andwithouthisdistinctlyrecognizingtheimpulse,therecertainlywaspresentinhimthesensethatCeliawouldbethere,andthatheshouldpayhermoreattentionthanhehaddonebefore.
Wemortals,menandwomen,devourmanyadisappointmentbetweenbreakfastanddinner-timekeepbackthetearsandlookalittlepaleaboutthelips,andinanswertoinquiriessay,“Oh,nothing!”Pridehelpsusandprideisnotabadthingwhenitonlyurgesustohideourownhurts—nottohurtothers.