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rgetheratlasthecouldnotbeartheabsenceandcameback.Andagainwithenjoymentcameremorse,and,ashamed,hefled,hatinghimself,despisingher. Theyearspassedby,andherhusbanddied.Whydidhenotcomebacktoher?Hadhelosthisloveandwasheafraid?Icouldnotunderstand.... Thenshemetme.Ah,Iwonderedwhatshefelt.Didsheloveme?Perhapshislongabsencehadmadeherpartlyforgethim,andshethoughthehadforgottenher.Shefellinlovewithme,andI—Ilovedherwithallmyheart.Iknewshelovedmethenshemusthavelovedme!Buthecameback.Hemayhavethoughthimselfcured,hemayhavesaidthathecouldmeethercoldlyandindifferently.HadInotsaidthesame?Butastheysawoneanothertheoldloveburstout,againitburntthemwithconsumingfire,andGiuliahatedmebecauseIhadmadeherfaithlesstotheloverofherheart. Thecandleswereburninglow,throwingstrangelightsandshadowsonthefacesofthedead. Poorfool!Hislovewasaspowerfulasever,buthefoughtagainstitwithallthestrengthofhisweakwill.ShewastheEvilOnetohimshetookhisyouthfromhim,hismanhood,hishonour,hisstrengthhefeltthatherkissesdegradedhim,andasherosefromherembracehefeltvileandmean.Hevowednevertotouchheragain,andeverytimehebrokethevow.Butherlovewasthesameasever—passionate,evenheartless.Shecarednotifsheconsumedhimaslongas