CHAPTER XXI.
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besupposedtobepayinghisaddressestoanyone.”
“Oh!iftheseareyouronlyobjections,”criedMrsSmith,archly,“MrElliotissafe,andIshallgivemyselfnomoretroubleabouthim.Donotforgetmewhenyouaremarried,that’sall.Lethimknowmetobeafriendofyours,andthenhewillthinklittleofthetroublerequired,whichitisverynaturalforhimnow,withsomanyaffairsandengagementsofhisown,toavoidandgetridofashecanverynatural,perhaps.Ninety-nineoutofahundredwoulddothesame.Ofcourse,hecannotbeawareoftheimportancetome.Well,mydearMissElliot,Ihopeandtrustyouwillbeveryhappy.MrElliothassensetounderstandthevalueofsuchawoman.Yourpeacewillnotbeshipwreckedasminehasbeen.Youaresafeinallworldlymatters,andsafeinhischaracter.Hewillnotbeledastrayhewillnotbemisledbyotherstohisruin.”
“No,”saidAnne,“Icanreadilybelieveallthatofmycousin.Heseemstohaveacalmdecidedtemper,notatallopentodangerousimpressions.Iconsiderhimwithgreatrespect.Ihavenoreason,fromanythingthathasfallenwithinmyobservation,todootherwise.ButIhavenotknownhimlongandheisnotaman,Ithink,tobeknownintimatelysoon.Willnotthismannerofspeakingofhim,MrsSmith,convinceyouthatheisnothingtome?Surelythismustbecalmenough.And,uponmyword,heisnothingtome.Shouldheeverproposetome(whichIhaveverylittlereasontoimaginehehasanythoughtofdoing),Ishallnotaccepthim.IassureyouIshallnot.Iassureyou,MrElliothadnotthesharewhichyouhavebeensupposing,inwhateverpleasuretheconcertoflastnightmightafford:notMrElliotitisnotMrElliotthat—”
Shestopped,regrettingwithadeepblushthatshehadimpliedsomuchbutlesswouldhardlyhavebeensufficient.MrsSmithwouldhardlyhavebelievedsosooninMrElliot’sfailure,butfromtheperceptionoftherebeingasomebodyelse.Asitwas,sheinstantlysubmitted,andwithallthesemblanceofseeingnothingbeyondandAnne,eagertoescapefarthernotice,wasimpatienttoknowwhyMrsSmithshouldhavefanciedshewastomarryMrElliotwhereshecouldhavereceivedtheidea,orfromwhomshecouldhaveheardit.
“Dotellmehowitfirstcameintoyourhead.”
“Itfirstcameintomyhead,”repliedMrsSmith,“uponfindinghowmuchyouweretogether,andfeelingittobethemostprobablethingintheworldtobewishedforbyeverybodybelongingtoeitherofyouandyoumaydependuponitthatallyouracquaintancehavedisposedofyouinthesameway.ButIneverhearditspokenoftilltwodaysago.”
“Andhasitindeedbeenspokenof?”
“Didyouobservethewomanwhoopenedthedoortoyouwhenyoucalledyesterday?”
“No.WasnotitMrsSpeed,asusual,orthemaid?Iobservednooneinparticular.”
“ItwasmyfriendMrsRookeNurseRookewho,by-the-bye,hadagreatcuriositytoseeyou,andwasdelightedtobeinthewaytoletyouin.ShecameawayfromMarlboroughBuildingsonlyonSundayandsheitwaswhotoldmeyouweretomarryMrElliot.ShehadhaditfromMrsWallisherself,whichdidnotseembadauthority.ShesatanhourwithmeonMondayevening,andgavemethewholehistory.”“Thewholehistory,”repeatedAnne,laughing.“Shecouldnotmakeaverylonghistory,Ithink,ofonesuchlittlearticleofunfoundednews.”
MrsSmithsaidnothing.
“But,”continuedAnne,presently,“thoughthereisnotruthinmyhavingthisclaimonMrElliot,IshouldbeextremelyhappytobeofusetoyouinanywaythatIcould.ShallImentiontohimyourbeinginBath?ShallItakeanymessage?”
“No,Ithankyou:no,certainlynot.Inthewarmthofthemoment,andunderamistakenimpression,Imight,perhaps,haveendeavouredtointerestyouinsomecircumstancesbutnotnow.No,Ithankyou,Ihavenothingtotroubleyouwith.”
“IthinkyouspokeofhavingknownMrElliotmanyyears?”
“Idid.”
“Notbeforehewasmarried,Isuppose?”
“YeshewasnotmarriedwhenIknewhimfirst.”
“And—wereyoumuchacquainted?”
“Intimately.”
“Indeed!Thendotellmewhathewasatthattimeoflife.IhaveagreatcuriositytoknowwhatMrElliotwasasaveryyoungman.Washeatallsuchasheappearsnow?”
“IhavenotseenMrElliotthesethreeyears,”wasMrsSmith’sanswer,givensogravelythatitwasimpossibletopursuethesubjectfartherandAnnefeltthatshehadgainednothingbutanincreaseofcuriosity.Theywerebothsilent:MrsSmithverythoughtful.Atlast—
“Ibegyourpardon,mydearMissElliot,”shecried,inhernaturaltoneofcordiality,“IbegyourpardonfortheshortanswersIhavebeengivingyou,butIhavebeenuncertainwhatIoughttodo.IhavebeendoubtingandconsideringastowhatIoughttotellyou.Thereweremanythingstobetakenintotheaccount.Onehatestobeofficious,tobegivingbadimpressions,makingmischief.Eventhesmoothsurfaceoffamily-unionseemsworthpreserving,thoughtheremaybenothingdurablebeneath.However,IhavedeterminedIthinkIamrightIthinkyououghttobemadeacquaintedwithMrElliot’srealcharacter.ThoughIfullybelievethat,atpresent,youhavenotthesmallestintentionofacceptinghim,thereisnosayingwhatmayhappen.Youmight,sometimeorother,bedifferentlyaffectedtowardshim.Hearthetruth,therefore,now,whileyouareunprejudiced.MrElliotisamanwithoutheartorconscienceadesigning,wary,cold-bloodedbeing,whothinksonlyofhimselfwhomforhisowninterestorease,wouldbeguiltyofanycruelty,oranytreachery,thatcouldbeperpetratedwithoutriskofhisgeneralcharacter.Hehasnofeelingforothers.Thosewhomhehasbeenthechiefcauseofleadingintoruin,hecanneglectanddesertwithoutthesmallestcompunction.Heistotallybeyondthereachofanysentimentofjusticeorcompassion.Oh!heisblackatheart,hollowandblack!”
Anne’sastonishedair,andexclamationofwonder,madeherpause,andinacalmermanner,sheadded,
“Myexpressionsstartleyou.Youmustallowforaninjured,angrywoman.ButIwilltrytocommandmyself.Iwillnotabusehim.IwillonlytellyouwhatIhavefoundhim.Factsshallspeak.Hewastheintimatefriendofmydearhusband,whotrustedandlovedhim,andthoughthimasgoodashimself.Theintimacyhadbeenformedbeforeourmarriage.IfoundthemmostintimatefriendsandI,too,becameexcessivelypleasedwithMrElliot,andentertainedthehighestopinionofhim.Atnineteen,youknow,onedoesnotthinkveryseriouslybutMrElliotappearedtomequiteasgoodasothers,andmuchmoreagreeablethanmostothers,andwewerealmostalwaystogether.Wewereprincipallyintown,livinginverygoodstyle.HewasthentheinferiorincircumstanceshewasthenthepooronehehadchambersintheTemple,anditwasasmuchashecoulddotosupporttheappearanceofagentleman.Hehadalwaysahomewithuswheneverhechoseithewasalwayswelcomehewaslikeabrother.MypoorCharles,whohadthefinest,mostgenerousspiritintheworld,wouldhavedividedhislastfarthingwithhimandIknowthathispursewasopentohimIknowthatheoftenassistedhim.”
“ThismusthavebeenaboutthatveryperiodofMrElliot’slife,”saidAnne,“whichhasalwaysexcitedmyparticularcuriosity.Itmusthavebeenaboutthesametimethathebecameknowntomyfatherandsister.IneverknewhimmyselfIonlyheardofhimbuttherewasasomethinginhisconduct