Chapter XX
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ttogivetoallandsundryformostoftheillstowhichthefleshisheir.ItwoulddoubtlessdoBerthanoharm,andthatisanimportantconsiderationtoageneralpractitioner.Dr.RamsaylikewiseadvisedEdwardtokeepcalmandbeconfidentthatBerthawouldeventuallybecomethedutifulandsubmissivespousewhomitiseveryman’sidealtoseebyhisfireside,whenhewakesupfromhisafter-dinnersnooze.
Bertha’smoodswerecertainlytrying.Noonecouldtelloneday,howshewouldbethenextandthiswaspeculiarlyuncomfortabletoamanwhowaswillingtomakethebestofeverything,butontheconditionthathehadtimetogetusedtoit.Sometimesshewouldbeseizedwithmelancholy,inthetwilightofwinterafternoons,forinstance,whenthemindisnaturallyledtoacontemplationofthevanityofexistenceandthefutilityofallhumanendeavour.Edward,noticingshewaspensive,astatewhichhedetested,askedwhatwereherthoughtsandhalfdreamilyshetriedtoexpressthem.
“GoodLorddeliverus!”hecriedcheerily,“whatrumthingsyoudogetintoyourlittlenoddle.Youmustbeoutofsorts.”
“Itisn’tthat,”sheanswered,smilingsadly.
“It’snotnaturalforawomantobroodinthatway.Ithinkyououghttostarttakingthattonicagain—butIdaresayyou’reonlytiredandyou’llthinkquitedifferentinthemorning.”
Berthamadenoanswer.Shesufferedfromthenamelesspainofexistenceandheofferedher—IronandQuinine:whensherequiredsympathybecauseherheartachedforthewoesofherfellow-men,hepouredTinctureofNuxVomicadownherthroat.Hecouldnotunderstand,itwasnouseexplainingthatshefoundasavourinthetendercontemplationoftheevilsofmankind.ButtheworstofitwasthatEdwardwasquiteright—thebrute,healwayswas!Whenthemorningcame,themelancholyhadvanished,Berthawasleftwithoutacare,andtheworlddidnotevenneedrose-colouredspectaclestoseemattractive.Itwashumiliatingtofindthathermostbeautifulthoughts,theennoblingemotionswhichbroughthometoherthecharmingfictionthatallmenarebrothers,wereduetomerephysicalexhaustion.
Somepeoplehaveextraordinarilyliteralminds,theyneverallowfortheplayofimagination:lifeforthemhasnobeerandskittles,and,farfrombeinganemptydream,isamatterofextremeseriousness.Ofsuchisthemanwho,whenawomantellshimshefeelsdreadfullyold,insteadofansweringthatshelooksabsurdlyyoung,repliesthatyouthhasitsdrawbacksandageitscompensations!AndofsuchwasEdward.Hecouldneverrealisethatpeopledidnotmeanexactlywhattheysaid.AtfirsthehadalwaysconsultedBerthaontheconductoftheestatebutshe,pleasedtobeanonentityinherownhouse,hadconsentedtoeverythinghesuggested,andevenbeggedhimnottoaskher.Whensheinformedhimthathewasabsolutelordnotonlyofherself,butofallherworldlygoods,itwasnotsurprisingthatheshouldatlasttakeheratherword.
“Womenknownothingaboutfarming,”hesaid,“andit’sbestthatIshouldhaveafreehand.”
Theresultofhisstewardshipwasallthatcouldbedesiredtheestatewasputintoapple-pieorder,andthefarmspaidrentforthefirsttimesincet