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oldandoftooindependentcharactertoacceptastranger’sauthoritynorhadMissLeythesmallestdesiretoexertauthorityoveranyone.Shewasaveryindolentwoman,whowishednothingmorethantoleavepeoplealoneandbeleftalonebythem.Butifitwasobviouslyherdutytotakechargeofanorphanniece,itwasalsoanadvantagethatBerthawaseighteen,and,butfortheconventionsofdecentsociety,couldverywelltakechargeofherself.MissLeywasnotunthankfultoamercifulProvidenceonthediscoverythatherwardhadeveryintentionofgoingherownway,andnonewhateverofhangingabouttheskirtsofamaidenauntwhowaspassionatelydevotedtoherliberty.
TheytravelledontheContinent,seeingmanychurches,pictures,andcities,intheexaminationofwhichtheirchiefaimappearedtobetoconcealfromoneanothertheemotionstheyfelt.LiketheRedIndianwhowillsufferthemosthorridtortureswithoutwincing,MissLeywouldhavethoughtithighlydisgracefultodisplayfeelingatsometouchingscene.Sheusedpolitecynicismasacloakforsentimentality,laughingthatshemightnotcry—andherwantoforiginalityherein,theoldrepetitionofGrimaldi’sdoubleness,madehersniggeratherself.Shefeltthattearswereunbecomingandfoolish.
“Weepingmakesafrightevenofagood-lookingwoman,”shesaid,“butifsheisuglytheymakehersimplyrepulsive.”
Finally,lettingherownflatinLondon,MissLeysettleddownwithBerthatocultivateruraldelightsatCourtLeys,nearBlackstable,inthecountyofKent.Thetwoladieslivedtogetherwithmuchharmony,althoughthedemonstrationsoftheiraffectiondidnotexceedasinglekissmorningandnight,givenandreceivedwithalmostequalindifference.Eachhadconsiderablerespectfortheother’sabilities,andparticularlyforthewitwhichoccasionallyexhibiteditselfinlittlefriendlysarcasms.Buttheyweretooclevertogetonbadly,andsincetheyneitherhatednorlovedoneanotherexcessively,therewasreallynoreasonwhytheyshouldnotcontinueonthebestofterms.ThegeneralresultoftheirrelationswasthatBertha’srestlessnessonthisparticulardayarousedinMissLeynomorequestionthanwaseasilyansweredbythewarmthofheryoungbloodandhereccentriccuriosityinrespectofthegateonaverycoldandunpleasantwinterafternoondidnotevencauseashrugofdisapprovaloranupraisingoftheeyelidsinwonder.
Berthaputonahatandwalkedout.Theavenueofelm-trees,reachingfromthe