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Imightperhapshardenmyselfintimeagainsttheinjusticeofgeneralreproach,butthelossofhisvaluedesteemIam,asyouwellknow,ill-fittedtoendureandwhentothismaybeaddedtheconsciousnessofhavinginjuredyouwithyourfamily,howamItosupportmyself?Withfeelingssopoignantasmine,theconvictionofhavingdividedthesonfromhisparentswouldmakeme,evenwithyou,themostmiserableofbeings.Itwillsurely,therefore,beadvisabletodelayourunion—todelayittillappearancesaremorepromising—tillaffairshavetakenamorefavourableturn.ToassistusinsucharesolutionIfeelthatabsencewillbenecessary.Wemustnotmeet.Cruelasthissentencemayappear,thenecessityofpronouncingit,whichcanalonereconcileittomyself,willbeevidenttoyouwhenyouhaveconsideredoursituationinthelightinwhichIhavefoundmyselfimperiouslyobligedtoplaceit.Youmaybe—youmustbe—wella