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nreceivingherletter,hehadconversedwithheronthesubjectofit,inordertounderstandtheparticulars,andtoassurehimselfofherrealwishes.Ihavenotadoubtbutthatthegirltookthisopportunityofmakingdownrightlovetohim.Iamconvincedofitbythemannerinwhichhespokeofher.Muchgoodmaysuchlovedohim!Ishalleverdespisethemanwhocanbegratifiedbythepassionwhichheneverwishedtoinspire,norsolicitedtheavowalof.Ishallalwaysdetestthemboth.Hecanhavenotrueregardforme,orhewouldnothavelistenedtoherandshe,withherlittlerebelliousheartandindelicatefeelings,tothrowherselfintotheprotectionofayoungmanwithwhomshehasscarcelyeverexchangedtwowordsbefore!Iamequallyconfoundedatherimpudenceandhiscredulity.Howdaredhebelievewhatshetoldhiminmydisfavour!OughthenottohavefeltassuredthatImusthaveunanswerablemotivesforallthatIhaddone?Wherewashisrelianceonmysenseandgoodnessthen?Wheretheresentmentwhichtruelovewouldhavedictatedagainstthepersondefamingme—thatperson,too,achit,achild,withouttalentoreducation