CHAPTER XXIX. LOUIS MOORE.
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utinousforheaven,tooinnocentforhell,nevershallIdomorethansee,andworship,andwishforthee.Alas!knowingIcouldmaketheehappy,willitbemydoomtoseetheepossessedbythosewhohavenotthatpower?
"Howeverkindlythehand,ifitisfeeble,itcannotbendShirleyandshemustbebent.Itcannotcurbherandshemustbecurbed.
"Beware,SirPhilipNunnely!Ineverseeyouwalkingorsittingatherside,andobserveherlipscompressed,orherbrowknit,inresoluteenduranceofsometraitofyourcharacterwhichsheneitheradmiresnorlikes,indeterminedtolerationofsomeweaknessshebelievesatonedforbyavirtue,butwhichannoysherdespitethatbeliefInevermarkthegraveglowofherface,theunsmilingsparkleofhereye,theslightrecoilofherwholeframewhenyoudrawalittletoonear,andgazealittletooexpressively,andwhisperalittletoowarmly—IneverwitnessthesethingsbutIthinkofthefableofSemelereversed.
"ItisnotthedaughterofCadmusIsee,nordoIrealizeherfatallongingtolookonJoveinthemajestyofhisgod-head.ItisapriestofJunothatstandsbeforeme,watchinglateandloneatashrineinanArgivetemple.Foryearsofsolitaryministryhehaslivedondreams.Thereisdivinemadnessuponhim.Helovestheidolheserves,andpraysdayandnightthathisfrenzymaybefed,andthattheOx-eyedmaysmileonhervotary.Shehasheardshewillbepropitious.AllArgosslumbers.Thedoorsofthetempleareshutthepriestwaitsatthealtar.
"Ashockofheavenandearthisfelt—notbytheslumberingcity,onlybythatlonelywatcher,braveandunshakeninhisfanaticism.Inthemidstofsilence,withnopreludingsound,heiswrappedinsuddenlight.Throughtheroof,throughtherent,wide-yawning,vast,white-blazingblueofheavenabove,poursawondrousdescent,dreadasthedownrushingofstars.Hehaswhatheasked.Withdraw—forbeartolook—Iamblinded.Ihearinthatfaneanunspeakablesound.WouldthatIcouldnothearit!Iseeaninsufferablegloryburningterriblybetweenthepillars.Godsbemercifulandquenchit!
"ApiousArgiveenterstomakeanearlyofferinginthecooldawnofmorning.Therewasthunderinthenighttheboltfellhere.Theshrineisshivered,themarblepavementroundsplitandblackened.Saturnia'sstatueriseschaste,grand,untouchedatherfeetpiledashesliepale.Nopriestremainshewhowatchedwillbeseennomore.
"Thereisthecarriage!Letmelockupthedeskandpocketthekeys.Shewillbeseekingthemto-morrowshewillhavetocometome.Ihearher:'Mr.Moore,haveyouseenmykeys?'
"Soshewillsay,inherclearvoice,speakingwithreluctance,lookingashamed,consciousthatthisisthetwentiethtimeofasking.Iwilltantalizeher,keepherwithme,expecting,doubtingandwhenIdorestorethem,itshallnotbewithoutalecture.Hereisthebag,too,andthepursetheglove—pen—seal.Sheshallwringthemalloutofmeslowlyandseparately—onlybyconfession,penitence,entreaty.Inevercantouchherhand,oraringletofherhead,oraribbonofherdress,butIwillmakeprivilegesformyself.Everyfeatureofherface,herbrighteyes,herlips,shallgothrougheachchangetheyknow,formypleasure—displayeachexquisitevarietyofglanceandcurve,todelight,thrill,perhapsmorehopelesslytoenchainme.IfImustbeherslave,Iwillnotlosemyfreedomfornothing."
Helockedthedesk,pocketedalltheproperty,andwent.