CHAPTER XXV. THE WEST WIND BLOWS.
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Notalwaysdothosewhodaresuchdivineconflictprevail.NightafternightthesweatofagonymayburstdarkontheforeheadthesupplicantmaycryformercywiththatsoundlessvoicethesoulutterswhenitsappealistotheInvisible."Sparemybeloved,"itmayimplore."Healmylife'slife.Rendnotfrommewhatlongaffectionentwineswithmywholenature.Godofheaven,bend,hear,beclement!"Andafterthiscryandstrifethesunmayriseandseehimworsted.Thatopeningmorn,whichusedtosalutehimwiththewhisperofzephyrs,thecarolofskylarks,maybreathe,asitsfirstaccents,fromthedearlipswhichcolourandheathavequitted,"Oh!Ihavehadasufferingnight.ThismorningIamworse.Ihavetriedtorise.Icannot.DreamsIamunusedtohavetroubledme."
Thenthewatcherapproachesthepatient'spillow,andseesanewandstrangemouldingofthefamiliarfeatures,feelsatoncethattheinsufferablemomentdrawsnigh,knowsthatitisGod'swillhisidolshallbebroken,andbendshishead,andsubdueshissoultothesentencehecannotavertandscarcecanbear.
HappyMrs.Pryor!Shewasstillpraying,unconsciousthatthesummersunhungabovethehills,whenherchildsoftlywokeinherarms.Nopiteous,unconsciousmoaning—soundwhichsowastesourstrengththat,evenifwehavesworntobefirm,arushofunconquerabletearssweepsawaytheoath—precededherwaking.Nospaceofdeafapathyfollowed.Thefirstwordsspokenwerenotthoseofonebecomingestrangedfromthisworld,andalreadypermittedtostrayattimesintorealmsforeigntotheliving.Carolineevidentlyrememberedwithclearnesswhathadhappened.
"Mamma,Ihavesleptsowell.Ionlydreamedandwoketwice."
Mrs.Pryorrosewithastart,thatherdaughtermightnotseethejoyfultearscalledintohereyesbythataffectionateword"mamma,"andthewelcomeassurancethatfollowedit.
Formanydaysthemotherdaredrejoiceonlywithtrembling.Thatfirstrevivalseemedliketheflickerofadyinglamp.Iftheflamestreamedupbrightonemoment,thenextitsankdiminthesocket.Exhaustionfollowedcloseonexcitement.
Therewasalwaysatouchingendeavourtoappearbetter,buttoooftenabilityrefusedtosecondwilltoooftentheattempttobearupfailed.Theefforttoeat,totalk,tolookcheerful,wasunsuccessful.ManyanhourpassedduringwhichMrs.Pryorfearedthatthechordsoflifecouldnevermorebestrengthened,thoughthetimeoftheirbreakingmightbedeferred.
Duringthisspacethemotheranddaughterseemedleftalmostaloneintheneighbourhood.ItwasthecloseofAugusttheweatherwasfine—thatistosay,itwasverydryandverydusty,foranaridwindhadbeenblowingfromtheeastthismonthpastverycloudless,too,thoughapalehaze,stationaryintheatmosphere,seemedtorobofalldepthoftonetheblueofheaven,ofallfreshnesstheverdureofearth,andofallglowthelightofday.AlmosteveryfamilyinBriarfieldwasabsentonanexcursion.MissKeeldarandherfriendswereattheseasidesowereMrs.Yorke'shousehold.Mr.HallandLouisMoore,betweenwhomaspontaneousintimacyseemedtohavearisen—theresul