CHAPTER X.
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Whenhisservantentered,helookedathimsteadfastlyandwonderedifhehadthoughtofpeeringbehindthescreen.Themanwasquiteimpassiveandwaitedforhisorders.Dorianlitacigaretteandwalkedovertotheglassandglancedintoit.HecouldseethereflectionofVictor’sfaceperfectly.Itwaslikeaplacidmaskofservility.Therewasnothingtobeafraidof,there.Yethethoughtitbesttobeonhisguard.
Speakingveryslowly,hetoldhimtotellthehouse-keeperthathewantedtoseeher,andthentogototheframe-makerandaskhimtosendtwoofhismenroundatonce.Itseemedtohimthatasthemanlefttheroomhiseyeswanderedinthedirectionofthescreen.Orwasthatmerelyhisownfancy?
Afterafewmoments,inherblacksilkdress,withold-fashionedthreadmittensonherwrinkledhands,Mrs.Leafbustledintothelibrary.Heaskedherforthekeyoftheschoolroom.
“Theoldschoolroom,Mr.Dorian?”sheexclaimed.“Why,itisfullofdust.Imustgetitarrangedandputstraightbeforeyougointoit.Itisnotfitforyoutosee,sir.Itisnot,indeed.”
“Idon’twantitputstraight,Leaf.Ionlywantthekey.”
“Well,sir,you’llbecoveredwithcobwebsifyougointoit.Why,ithasn’tbeenopenedfornearlyfiveyears—notsincehislordshipdied.”
Hewincedatthementionofhisgrandfather.Hehadhatefulmemoriesofhim.“Thatdoesnotmatter,”heanswered.“Isimplywanttoseetheplace—thatisall.Givemethekey.”
“Andhereisthekey,sir,”saidtheoldlady,goingoverthecontentsofherbunchwithtremulouslyuncertainhands.“Hereisthekey.I’llhaveitoffthebunchinamoment.Butyoudon’tthinkoflivingupthere,sir,andyousocomfortablehere?”
“No,no,”hecriedpetulantly.“Thankyou,Leaf.Thatwilldo.”
Shelingeredforafewmoments,andwasgarrulousoversomedetailofthehousehold.Hesighedandtoldhertomanagethingsasshethoughtbest.Shelefttheroom,wreathedinsmiles.
Asthedoorclosed,Dorianputthekeyinhispocketandlookedroundtheroom.Hiseyefellonalarge,purplesatincoverletheavilyembroideredwithgold,asplendidpieceoflateseventeenth-centuryVenetianworkthathisgrandfatherhadfoundinaconventnearBologna.Yes,thatwouldservetowrapthedreadfulthingin.Ithadperhapsservedoftenasapallforthedead.Nowitwastohidesomethingthathadacorruptionofitsown,worsethanthecorruptionofdeathitself—somethingthatwouldbreedhorrorsandyetwouldneverdie.Whatthewormwastothecorpse,hissinswouldbetothepaintedimageonthecanvas.Theywouldmaritsbeautyandeatawayitsgrace.Theywoulddefileitandmakeitshameful.Andyetthethingwouldstillliveon.Itwouldbealwaysalive.
Heshuddered,andforamomentheregrettedthathehadnottoldBasilthetruereasonwhyhehadwishedtohidethepictureaway.BasilwouldhavehelpedhimtoresistLordHenry’sinfluence,andthestillmorepoisonousinfluencesthatcamefromhisowntemperament.Thelovethatheborehim—foritwasreallylove—hadnothinginitthatwasnotnobleandintellectual.Itwasnotthatmerephysicaladmirationofbeautythatisbornofthesensesandthatdieswhenthesensestire.ItwassuchloveasMichelangelohadknown,andMontaigne,andWinckelmann,andShakespearehimself.Yes,Basilcouldhavesavedhim.Butitwastoolatenow.Thepastcouldalwaysbeannihilated.Regret,denial,orforgetfulnesscoulddothat.Butthef